Cold Armor

I built this shell like a second skin

No cracks show, no way in

They said "you're strong now", yeah, guess I am

But why does it feel like I lost who I am?

Used to feel everything, now it's just static

Smile in the mirror, but it looks automatic

Pain made me colder, but I'm numb inside

Every scar turned ice I wear with pride

They clap when I walk through fire and glass

But no one asks what I buried in the past

Victory feels like silence, not peace

Guess healing ain't the same as release

This cold armor fits me tight

Keeps me safe, but kills something inside

I don't cry, I don't feel

Is this power, or just unreal?

I leveled up, but lost some soul

Now I break things I can't control

Yeah, I'm strong, but not alive

Just surviving in this ice

I don't trust like I used to do

Every smile feels like a threat in view

They say "you've changed," and I nod like it's fine

But truth is, I left my heart behind

This ain't growth, it's self-defense

And I wear it like it makes more sense

They see armor, I feel void

I won the war, but I got destroyed

I used to cry to feel alive

Now I hold my breath and survive

Is this the cost of getting strong?

If so... maybe I've been wrong

This cold armor fits me tight

Keeps me safe, but kills something inside

I don't cry, I don't feel

Is this power, or just unreal?

I leveled up, but lost some soul

Now I break things I can't control

Yeah, I'm strong, but not alive

Just surviving in this ice

So don't call it growth if I disappeared

Don't call it strength if I just got weird

This armor saved me, that's no lie

But tell me...

is it worth it if I can't cry?