Der lauteste Krieg ist der, den keiner sieht, der in einem selbst. Über das Wegstoßen und Zurücksehnen, das Sabotieren dessen, was man am meisten braucht.
(Wait… don't go…)
(Stay… no, leave…)
Tears hit my skin but I wipe them away
Practice a smile like I'm good, like I'm okay
Turn my back hoping you'll call my name
But I'm the one who pushed you away
I say I'm fine, I don't need no one
Then I hate the silence when you're gone
Every word like a loaded gun
I shoot first, then I come undone
I pull you close just to let you fall
I build it up just to lose it all
Wait, don't go, stay right here
Say goodbye, then I need you near
Every line that I draw disappears
I don't know what I want from here
Hold me close, let me leave
Say I'm done, then I beg you please
Every part of me disagrees
I'm a war that I can't defeat
I stood so high like I had control
Looking down like I'm untouchable
But the fall hits harder when you're alone
And I taste every word I said like stone
Everything that I swore I'd never be
Looking back, it's staring back at me
I pushed you off, but I jumped the same
Now I'm stuck with the blame and the empty space
I hear your voice in the quiet now
But I'm the reason you're not around
Wait, don't go, stay right here
Say goodbye, then I need you near
Every line that I draw disappears
I don't know what I want from here
Hold me close, let me leave
Say I'm done, then I beg you please
Every part of me disagrees
I'm a war that I can't defeat
I blocked your number but I know it by heart
Every digit like a place I restart
I walk these streets hoping I won't see you
And every shadow looks like you do
I tell myself it was never real
But I still chase the way you feel
If I see you, I'll break again
Run straight back to where we end
Wait stay no go,
I don't even know anymore
Close far yes no,
I'm the one I can't ignore
Wait, don't go, stay right here
Say goodbye, then I need you near
Every line that I draw disappears
I don't know what I want from here
Hold me close, let me leave
Say I'm done, then I beg you please
Every part of me disagrees
I'm a war that I can't defeat
(Wait baby… don't go…)
(I don't know… I don't know…)
