Gravel In My Lungs

I wake up to the sound of a train I can't catch

Sun burns the fields like a cigarette match

The bar's got a jukebox stuck on the same song

Same sad voices singin' what went wrong

She left me a note on a cracked motel door

Said "You chase your freedom, I can't chase you no more"

Every goodbye sounds the same

Different face, same kind of pain

I got gravel in my lungs from the miles I ran

Dust in my veins and blood on my hands

If I make it out, I'm not lookin' back

Yeah, I been livin' fast, but I'm movin' slow

If I die tonight on this dead-end track

Just bury me where the highway bends back

There's a cross on the hill with my brother's name

Wind in the wire singin' quiet blame

I talk to the dark like it's my old friend

'Cause the dark's the only thing listenin' in

He left in green with a crooked grin

Said "I'll be back," then the world went thin

Letters came slow, then they stopped that fall

Flag on the door, boots in the hall

Now I march through days with his name in my chest

Every breath I take is a breath he left

I got gravel in my lungs from the miles I ran

Still chokin' on dreams I don't understand

If heaven's real, it's a long way back

From the roads I burned and the love I cracked

Yeah, I been livin' fast, but I'm payin' slow

Every mile I took, it took me though

If I die tonight on this dead-end track

Don't cry for me, just light a match

Let it burn behind me in the rearview glass

I ain't lookin' back, I ain't lookin' back